Franklin Delano Roosevelt ruined my first birthday.
I'm sure he didn't mean to. He died. News of the
president's death reached the mothers in our neighborhood in Yellow Springs,
Ohio, while they were at my party, bringing it to an abrupt and tearful halt.
With Harry S Truman's elevation to the presidency, my
first birthday marked what would foreshadow the beginning of the nuclear
age. The second World War was at its most dangerous, the outcome in
doubt. Four months later Truman would order the dropping of the first and
second nuclear bombs to be used on people, weapons so secret Truman himself
knew nothing about their existence until he was suddenly president.
Daddy and Mummy (Dr. Earle and Barbara
Reynolds) were at a writers' retreat in North Carolina when the news came that
a new type of bomb had obliterated Hiroshima. Three days later Nagasaki
was mentioned almost as a postscript. My parents felt relieved. Not
because they had anything against the Japanese. But maybe this would end the
war. Mum went back to polishing the murder mystery she was writing, Alias
for Death. Dad went back to working on his latest play. Bite
the Dust, maybe. Or, I Weep for You.
We
had no way of knowing that the reverberations from those two explosions would
someday reach out and profoundly affect our own family, shaking our
assumptions, our ways of thinking and our plans to their very foundations,
radically redirecting our lives. The day would come when Mum would tell
survivors of those bombs, weeping, "I too, am a hibakusha (explosion-affected
person)." They would design a monument to her with those words on it
in her handwriting and unveil it in 2011 in the Hiroshima Peace Memorial Park
(their Ground Zero).
But for the next six years they didn't think about the bomb. We lived a
normal American life in the small college town where Dad--with a PhD in
Physical Anthropology from the University of Chicago--worked at Fels Research
Institute and taught at Antioch College.
In 1951 that changed forever. The National Academy of
Sciences, through the Atomic Energy Commission, assigned Dad to move to
Hiroshima and conduct a three-year study on the effects of the first nuclear
bomb on the growth and development of surviving children. Mum, Tim (15),
Ted (13) and I (7) moved with him.
We all had to get passport photos taken, apply for visas--and worst of all for
a terrified seven-year old, endure a series of ten injections, for everything
from typhoid to typhus, smallpox to yellow fever. Then, complete with our
"Woody" station wagon and our dog Cappy (short for Caprice), we
packed up to move to Japan.
We
drove to San Francisco and steamed across the ocean to Yokohama on the
President Wilson. Dad drove the Woody carefully down the length of
Honshu, the main island, because the only road was often only one lane wide,
and even where it was wider, one of the lanes was always under repair.
Large chunks of the road had been blown away. Perspiring laborers were lugging
the chunks back from the fields in baskets swinging from each end of a stick
across their bare shoulders. Beyond them, ankle-deep in mud, their wives
stooped to transplant spears of rice.
We passed through towns that were clogged with cars, bicycles, oxen-drawn carts
and three-wheeled "bata batas." Once Daddy had to back up and he
asked me to look and see if there was anything behind us.
"No, Daddy," I said. "Nothing but people."
People.
Wherever we stopped, children, their eyes bright with curiosity, crowded around
our car, greeting us with a chorus of "Harro, Harro!" They
jostled each other aside and held out grubby hands, grinning and clamoring for
"Chu-in-ga-a-mu!" That's all the English they knew. Chewing
gum. The only foreigners they had ever seen were soldiers. We
were a family. A father who was not wearing a uniform. A
mother. Kids, like them. (Later, when our grandmother DiggyDee came
to visit, her soft white hair made a sensation throughout the country.
Even grown women wanted to touch it.) And a dog! There were no
dogs, cats or birds left in Japan after the war. Rumor had it they had
all been eaten.
Every child had a runny nose.
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Tim and Cappy |
Families
in Nijimura did what families were probably doing back in the States. The
men went to work every day and the women got together for bridge and gossip.
Tim and Ted attended high school on the island of Eta Jima. They had to
commute to it daily in a "veeHICular ferry," an American Army landing
craft.
I rode my bike to the nearby elementary school where all the grades met in one
room. I would have been starting second grade back home but the
Australian school system was tougher and I had to re-do most of first
grade. When the Americans took over using Calvert correspondence
courses we could study and take tests at our own pace. By the time we
left Japan I had caught up with myself.
The first year we were there the base was run by the Australians, who had been
in Japan with the British Commonwealth Occupation Forces (BCOF) since
1946. BCOF included Australian, British, Indian and New Zealand military
forces and at its peak, comprised about 40,000 personnel, equal to about 25% of
the number of US military personnel in Japan.
While US forces were responsible for military government, BCOF was responsible
for supervising demilitarization and the disposal of Japan's war
industries. They occupied the western prefectures of Shimane, Yamaguchi,
Tottori, Okayama, Hiroshima ad Shikoku Island. BCOF headquarters was at
Kure, the biggest city near us. (Of course I didn't know all this at the time.)
But the Aussies only overlapped the Americans for a year or so. Tim came
home from one of his first days in Australian-run Eta Jima High School to
report excitedly that the school was going to have a "fight."
Mum was alarmed. "A fight? The principal won't allow
that!"
"Sure he will," insisted Tim. "The school is putting it
on." A fete, we found out later.
(Mum made sure that we met up with my Australian friend Carol Exton a few years
later at the Puckapunyal Army Base near Melbourne in her own country. There is
a Facebook page now for BCOF Japan Kids, those descendants who went to or
were born in Hiroshima between 1947 and 1953. It is a closed group but
they let me in. We were sad, comparing notes, to find that many in
the group, living near Hiroshima so soon after the nuclear bomb, had had
multiple health issues there and after they came home that didn't make sense
until they started reading about ionizing radiation-related illnesses.)
Tim, the firstborn, was with us in Japan for only one year. He was
popular among the children my age living on the base as a magician at my and
their birthday parties. He wrote what may be the only poem to come out of
the Allied occupation of Japan:
It cheers one to know that there are a lot of Japanese in their 30s now
who have as one of their earliest and most cherished memories
the first foreign devil they ever saw
& he did a magic show, man, like you would not believe,
doves, rabbits, we wanted to eat them,
he had a chopping machine & he chopped a potato in half with it
& told Yamaguchi-san to stick his arm in
Was this how the Occupation was going to be, we wondered
We figured it would be interesting, but
what did it portend?
Was it good? Was it bad?
We just couldn't make up our minds.
Just like 7-year olds back in the States, in my free time I cooked real
cupcakes in my one-candle-power oven and had tea parties for my dolls and Teddy
bear. (In my case mine it was a koala, which I know is not a bear.)
Cynthia was plastic with articulated arms, Judy was a chubby baby and Boh-chan
was a dark doll with a perpetual pucker of distress. He wore two layers
of cloth kimono and I assumed he was Japanese. I didn't look at him
appraisingly until I was grown. He wasn't Asian, he was African-American,
not that it mattered to me. I also taped pictures of American movie
stars--Ava Gardner, Joan Crawford, Susan Hayward, Barbara Stanwyck--to my
closet mirror.
Every Saturday all the kids attended the matinee at the one
theater on the base, even though there were only enough of us to fill the first
few rows. I think there was only one movie shown all week. I may be
wrong about that. I noticed the other kids didn't put the seats down. They sat
perched on their edges. So I did, too.
We had just arrived in Nijimura and I didn't know anyone yet. It was
Saturday and either my parents had walked me down to the theater or I had gone
alone. I was waiting in the front or second row, surrounded by running,
climbing, swirling, laughing Army kids, for the matinee to start. A girl
my age emerged from behind the curtain, walked down the stairs from the stage
and came straight to me. She motioned for me to come with her and I
followed eagerly, grateful for the gesture of friendship Without a word
she led me up the stairs, behind the curtain, and turned me over to a wizened
old Japanese man who reeked of cheap cigarettes. After she disappeared he
French-kissed me and let me stagger back to my seat dazed and nauseated.
I have thought since that perhaps this man was getting his own private revenge
against the foreigners who humiliated his Emperor--by humiliating their daughters.
Of course I didn't tell anyone; no one did in those days.
Other than on this occasion, the base effectively insulated us from Japan and
the Japanese people, except for those who cooked our meals and mowed our
lawn. I rode home for lunch every day, eating bean-with bacon soup and
bread-and-butter--my choice--alone at the dining room table, served by our
Japanese "housegirl" Dote-san.
It was fun living in Nijimura because we had a maid. Mum didn't have to
cook or clean and I didn't have to wash dishes or pick up my clothes.
Miss Dote (Dohtay) couldn't read English so the first night she worked for us,
she opened all the cans to see what to serve for dinner. Then for some reason
she peeled off and threw away the labels, so we had to do a lot of guessing
ourselves for weeks and ended d up eating some interesting combinations.
We'd go by size, stewed tomatoes and peaches came in big cans, vegetables and
soup in smaller ones. We heard that one housegirl in a home with small
children was horrified to see small jars of food on kitchen shelves with
pictures of babies on them! And there was much discussion among the
kitchen staff of all the Nijimura families when, for an American-sponsored
picnic, they found out we were eating hot dogs. (Maybe Dote-san thought
Cappy was to be the piece de resistance.)
Once
Dote-san forgot to cover the pitcher of maple syrup and when I poured sit over
my pancakes, a two-inch-long shiny black cockroach washed out along with the
dark, thick liquid. He lay atop them in departed dignity, thin contracted
legs in the air. Little brown roaches, of no consequence by comparison,
never bothered me after that but it took me a long time to like pancakes again.
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Ted and me, with Cynthia |
My brother Ted, who was absent-minded long before he became a professor, wore
the same shirt every day. At night Dote-san would wash it, iron it, fold
it, and place it back in his drawer on top of the others--until Mum pointed out
that Ted was pulling out the same one every day and instructed her to put the
clean shirt on the bottom. My mother was a genius at some things
and avoiding confrontation was one of them.
We kids played jokes on the maid but Mum tried to get to know and befriend
her. Miss Dote was young and overwhelmed, trying to survive in a foreign
world within her own devastated one. The Americans she had been taught to
hate were now the employers she must learn to respect and serve.
Most people in Nijimura paid little attention to the world outside the gates.
Every August 6, the
anniversary of the bombing, everyone was warned not to leave the base in case
the Japanese turned hostile. (In all my years there, I only saw one Japanese
hostile toward Americans and he was drunk.) But hardly anyone left the base anyway unless they had to. Daddy and Mummy called it "the zoo."
Whenever dependents had to leave the base, they watched curiously through their
car windows, noting shops lining narrow streets, their fronts open to display
fruit, vegetables or cheap trinkets. Little girls wearing pink and red
together with no sense of fashion. Mothers nursing babies in public with
no sense of modesty. Men urinating along city sidewalks with no sense of
shame. How primitive, how offensive! Americans would never think of using
public Japanese restrooms. They were just holes over mountains of reeking
excrement.
Foreigners would return to the base relieved to be back in their familiar
habitat.
But our
family was an exception. Mum and Dad took us kids off base by
choice. Mum wanted to experience Japan. As a child, she had
read a book called The Japanese Twins by Lucy F. Perkins (published in
1912) and she was fascinated with Japanese life. She had her mother strap
a doll to her back and practiced using chopsticks. So she had never
feared or hated the Japanese before or during the war. She was excited when Dad
was assigned to Japan and we were invited to go with him.
Mum had me take lessons in flower-arranging, calligraphy and dance (a far cry
from the ballet and tap I studied during three months we had spent in Tucson).
While Dad was at work (ABCC sent a car and driver to pick him up), Mum would take us
into Hiro, the nearest town. We would get out of the car and walk down
the narrow roads and look at, even buy, the fresh fruit and vegetables.
Japanese women behind the stalls would rush to help us, bowing a lot, carefully
selecting the cost of the items from the coins we held on open palm.
Others, in kimonos and wooden clogs, perhaps a baby asleep on their back, would
sling dippers full of water on the dirt roads to keep down the dust. We'd
smile and they'd bow, their baby learning social skills by bowing with them.
Mum had learned the two simplest of the three Japanese alphabets
and she taught them to me. We were on a train ride together, just the two of
us, to northern Honshu, maybe even Hokkaido. (I remember nothing else about the
trip.) She identified the harder letters with animals and made up little
stories about them. "Neh" which is shaped like a crouched animal with
a curly tail, was for "nezumi" (mouse). I have never forgotten them.
She herself learned them from Dr. Yamada.
Dr.
Yamada was a strait-laced little professor Mum and Dad had hired to teach them
Japanese. Impeccably groomed and proper, carrying a briefcase, Dr. Yamada would
come to our stucco block house in Rainbow Village once a week and teach them to
read and write his language. They would ask him all kinds of questions about
the culture and try to understand the "inscrutable Japanese" mind.
After they felt they knew him well enough, Dad asked him how to swear in
Japanese.
Professor Yamada's impassive expression betrayed nothing. "We do not have
words like that in Japanese," he answered politely.
"Sure, you do. Every language has words like that," Dad prodded.
"What would a workman on a ladder say if the man above him spilled hot tar
on his head?"
Mr. Yamada was unruffled. "He would say, 'Please don't spill hot tar on my
head.'"
"Come on, Mr. Yamada," coaxed Dad. "What would he really say?"
Mr. Yamada relaxed just a little. "Well," he admitted confidentially,
"he might not say 'please.'"
Mr. Yamada lived into his 90s and
became one of our best friends and strongest supporters.
Mum
had written children's books for Tim, (Pepper, about his raccoon) and
for Ted (Hamlet and Brownswiggle, about his hamsters).
Later she would write Emily San
about a little American girl in Japan with her family, for me. It was
translated into Japanese after her death and published as Rainbow Village.
*Note: Truman didn't have a middle name. He
arbitrarily made it an "S" which doesn't stand for anything so it's
not supposed to have a period after it.